Track 1 - Who, What, Where, Why

I am different than you and your different than anyone else you know. I am just a normal guy per most people's evaluation. I just had my 32nd birthday (happy birthday to me). I am single and around that fact most of my focus revolves. I always laugh at my friends and siblings how their social media outlets change the moment they get a significant other and even more so when they have kids. Their facebook changes from spontaneous adventures skiing, mountain biking, Vegas, and Hawaii to crazy excitement at Gymboree and Babies R Us. Those changes to a single guy take my interest from Fast and Furious to Eat, Pray, Love. I lose all connection and intrigue because I no longer have much in common with them. I'm not dogging them for that, on the contrary, I think its great. Thanks a lot for leaving me behind everyone! Or is that just how I am supposed to feel. That my life isn't progressing because I don't have anyone to live for and to put before myself? My mom thinks so.

I have been blessed with one of the greatest mothers in the world, and as any great mother, she wants me to be happy. She also wants me to find "Miss Right". I do too mom but relax a little. I am looking. To be completely honest, let's go on a little tangent about that phrase. To be completely honest, hmmm, always kind of a funny turn of phrase implying that all the other things weren't honest. I usually avoid that saying but oh well it works. So back to me being completely honest. Recently, I have really started to desire a wife and family. My job takes me and my compadres on the road. I noticed recently that I am jealous of their happy reunions each week with a loving wife and little rug rats running up to greet them. I smile and then turn to find a taxi home. Ok, it's not that bad I have awesome friends and roommates that volunteer to pick me up but you get the idea. When I realized that I was envious of those relationships I realized I need a new dating strategy. I am not going to divulge all the details about what I mean by that. That will be touched on a lot in upcoming entries. I can't put all the juicy stuff in the first slice.

If for some reason you continue to read my directionless rants, I will go into a deeper explanation as to my mental and emotion internal adjustments. There are a lot of factors and pressures that also weigh into it. I will be the first to admit that my potential mate stock value continues to fall as my age climbs, except now I take my dates to the Melting Pot instead of Taco bell but come on we all know that women aren't gold diggers (lqtm). Well it's 1:30 AM and I am going to crash out. So until next time, dueces.

Introduction

I was sitting on a plane flying home from Detroit, MI, gazing out the window at the endless line of blue with the fading sun. The flight started at sunset and as we sped through the troposphere heading west I couldn't help but think we were chasing that falling sun. With that thought came a new one.

My job allows me to travel almost every week and I return late Saturday nights and on most of these flights I see the same spectacle of the prolonged sunset. It is a view that now reminds me of heading back. Returning to where I truly want to be. Home. Home has many different meanings for people. To some, its a physical location of there temporal dwelling. To others it has a spiritual meaning. The place where their heart is. Where they are comfortable, at peace, or happy. I decided to write my thoughts here using both those meanings under the title of "Chasing The Falling Sun" because that's where I'm at in my life. I am searching for love, career success, spiritual growth and it will probably be extremely boring to read, sorry. I am not writing this for any particular person or purpose more than to share my quest to catch up to the light and make it home. So sit back, throw on a pair of noise canceling headphones and get lost in the sliver of heaven where the white fades to blue, purple and then to black as I sort through my thoughts.

I took this picture from my airplane window last Saturday (May 14, 2011) flying home from Atlanta, GA.